Hello lovelies! I thought about doing this, not doing this for awhile; writing something a little more personal.
I have quite of few followers now (which is completely awesome by the way, (thank you!) and thought sharing a little about me and what has brought me to this place in my life.
We rarely see the insides of someone. We see the outside persona of who we think we can allow the world to see. We miss the raw and vulnerable self. Are we too ashamed to say, "I'm hurting"? Are we fearful someone will cast judgement? I know for me, I truly enjoy keeping my life as private as I can, but I also feel that being a life coach brings on the responsibility of vulnerability.
I will not give you the "in great length" detail, but a short version; promise!
Okay, let's start with the real easy stuff. I'm 45 years old and have two adult children. That's the easy stuff...
I wasn't always this positive. I wasn't always a happy girl and lady. To be honest with you, I was quite miserable. I was married young, that marriage didn't work, but I did have my two AWESOME children from that marriage. From the point that marriage dissolved, I was in numerous other relationships, and going from job to job without an educational foundation. I have always been blessed with the jobs I acquired, but none of them truly made me happy. It is not that I feel being educated makes a person worthy, but being educated was extremely important to me. I was told over and over again how I could not go to college, I wasn't smart enough, and I would never do it. Ha! I showed him! More importantly, I showed myself!!!! When we are beat down over and over again, we start to believe what we are told. This was my story. What I was told for so long literally made me feel worthless. The foundation was set by me allowing someone to control my life. It took many years of rebuilding myself. Many. Fast forward a little through the miserable years and in a job I loved and hated at the same time, I decided to take a little time off to figure out what I wanted to do with my life. I decided I would go back to school and get the degree I always wanted to; Psychology! I am a recent graduate, September of 2015 is when I received my diploma (don't ever tell yourself you are too old to go back to school). Yet again I found myself wondering what I was going to with myself and my degree living in a small town. How could I help people with the degree I had? My goal is my master's degree in counseling and who knows, maybe I will get my doctorate too (I have time to make that final decision), but what could I do now to continue my path of helping people? Life Coaching! I researched, I researched more and obtained my certification this year. I built my business by myself. After a little help from my son who is knowledgeable with computers, I took off on building my own website. A lot of work was put into building the business and it took time. I have learned to be more patient. I continue to learn each day that if something doesn't work out the first time around, all I have to do is try again. It doesn't mean I have been defeated, it just means things weren't quite right and I have to come up with another plan and solution to make it work. I have been blessed to have awesome clients, seeing them do the ground work for their change, and me helping guide them along the way has been a phenomenal journey!
I am where I am with a lot of hard work. I am where I am because I faced the toughest challenge; myself. Most of what we wish for takes dedication and determination. I am ecstatic with my job of life coaching. They say if you love your job you don't work a day in your life. I believe this! My job is extremely rewarding.
I am sharing this because I was at a low place in my life and from what I have learned through the years of truly getting to know myself is, it is okay to be vulnerable. I was sad, unhappy, miserable...you name it, that was me. I was done being sad and I surely was finished being miserable. But one day, my life changed. I have 8 to 9 years of getting to know my true self. What I will and will not accept. Who means something to me and who does not. What is important to preserve and what I can let go.
I am sharing this because I want people to know I am human also. I have had my share of rough years. I have made many "oops". My belief is that we have learning experiences, not mistakes. I have done things in my life I am not proud of, but also have forgiven myself for those actions. We have to learn to forgive others and ourselves if we are ever going to move forward with our lives.
I am not perfect. I have many imperfections. Sometimes I get upset (I'm human), but I have learned to work through them. There is not a situation that I cannot get through. Some may be difficult, real difficult, but I know with the tools I have learned through my personal experience, I can get through anything. Stuff happens and life goes on.
My inner strength has become powerful on my journey and I am truly humbled each and every day.
Be at peace with yourselves, soul people. Please know it is okay to be extremely vulnerable. It is okay to feel low and not know what you are doing, or where you are going. Keep learning and keep asking yourself questions. If you are miserable and want some sort of change, go for it. Let the fear and anger go and know you can do anything you set your mind to.
Give yourself credit to know you can be completely vulnerable, free, and courageous in your lifetime. If you want something different, now is the time to make that change. ♥ Sarah